It’s One of those Days

When I feel ugly and fat/overweight.

Today I wore unflattering clothes to work. By unflattering, I mean tight jeans and a flannel top which emphasizes my thighs more. I saw myself in the mirror few minutes ago and saw how big my thighs were. As if there was a time it isn’t. But it’s noticeable (for me) how bigger I got because of my bigger thighs, chubbier cheeks and flabby arms. The other day I asked our maid if I’m getting fat, expecting she’d say “no, of course not!” she actually said “ay oo lumaki nga braso mo.” (yes! Especially your arms.) And it only made me realize that I’m actually gaining weight and felt heavier than usual.

So I decided to run last Sunday, and then went to the gym on Monday, hoping I’d feel better about myself (and I promised myself again that I’d exercise regulary). But today I felt worse. Maybe it’s because of the clothes I’m wearing.

But today my officemate Steph and I went to Starbucks to grab coffee. The barista wrote “you look beautiful” on Steph’s cup while mine says “Godbless”. I don’t know if that means something but for me it definitely tells me something – that maybe I am the ugly friend. Now I’m feeling worse-r.

I’m being unfair again to myself. I just promised from my previous blog that I’d stop hating myself but today I just found more reasons to feel that way.

I hope this is just me going through PMS.

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HAPPY CHEVY DAY!

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January 11 falls on a Wednesday, unlucky me I had work that day while Chevy’s on leave. I spent the day in the office while Chevy ran some errands and did some chores, talk about a productice birthday. We really didn’t know the plan yet and I was forcing him to pick me up in Makati but unfortunately, his car’s number coding. So the plan was to meet up at Alabang Town Center since it’s pretty convenient to travel from Makati to Alabang.

I left the office at exactly 6PM, rushed to Glorietta to buy him a gift (I didn’t want to come unpreppared and I didn’t get the chance to buy him one the past few days because I was sick) thankfully it only took me 30 minutes. Took the shuttle straight to Alabang, which only took me about 45 minutes to get there.

It was a simple Japanese dinner with Chevy and his family, a “tradition” we’ve been doing ever since. We ate at Nanbantei, ATC. Chevy wasn’t expecting any gifts which made me giddy because I love surprising him!!

We’ve been spending 5 consecutive birthdays together, well techincally 4, and it makes me so happy cause it only brings me closer not just to him but also to his family. Can you believe we started dating when he was 18 and now he’s already 23?! Where did the time go…

Snippets from my Snapchat:



Chev and I’s fave!

 


Look who’s happy with his new shoes!!

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Self Love 2017

I have so many things on my goal list this year. As much as possible I don’t want to call it “New Year’s resolution” cause it sounds so cliché, “goals” sounds so more realistic. Anyway, I’ll try to make a separate blog about my list but right now I just want to focus on one thing since I want to make it my number 1 priority.

SELF LOVE.

It’s one of the things I really have a hard time learning. I’ve always hated myself for so many reasons, although there are times I feel beautiful and there are times when I just don’t care anymore. I’ve attempted way too many times to feel beautiful; I tried whitening pills, diet pills, deprived myself from all the food I want to eat, had an eating disorder, exercised but eventually gave up. I always have that insecurity in me which drives me to do all crazy things just to for me to feel beautiful.

It’s exhausting, in all honesty. I keep comparing myself to all beautiful women I see and trust me, it didn’t help a single bit.

I want to change that mentality. For once, I want to actually feel beautiful about myself without having to compare myself to others. But at the same time, I want to take care more of myself by exercising more (for the goal of actually staying healthy NOT skinny or not because “I want to be as thin as her”), eating a healthy diet but not depriving myself, giving my body enough rest, wearing clothes and makeup that makes me feel sexy, etc. I want to spoil myself if it only means making me feel confident and beautiful about myself. I realized that maybe it’s time to give myself some love for the past years I’ve hated it.

It’s exhausting waking up and spending the day whining about how fat and unhappy I am because of the bulges whenever I sit down or the cellulites in my legs. It’s exhausting regretting all the yummy food I ate when in fact I really enjoyed it WHILE eating. I want to change that way of thinking to “oh how cute I have a bulge in my tummy but I’m on my way to a flat stomach I just have to be a little more patient”, or “damn my legs are thick AF!” or “damn that meal was delicious #NoRegrets”.

I’m trying my best to stick to that mantra and it’s wonderful how it can change my mood the whole day. Someone says I’m fat? No biggie I’ll just use that as my motivation to hit the gym more. Something like that makes a positive impact in my way of thinking and I love how it affects everything around me. I feel positive about EVERYTHING.

I guess that’s a great start. I know it’s not going to be easy but I’ll really do my best. I deserve some love from my own self, we all do.

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Thank you, 2016

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Wow, I’m blogging again. I’m starting from scratch because the old domain expired and I just don’t feel like renewing it for some reason (read: cost cutting).

Anyway, it’s been one hell of a ride, 2016!! I’m welcoming 2017 with a happy and grateful heart, like I always do. Now since I’ve been MIA for the whole year, let me list down all the things happened to me this 2016. (I’ll try my best to remember every little thing)

  • I got into STATUS Media as an art intern and got to do all the things I’ve always loved doing – illustration, typography, magazine editorial layout and a lot more.
  • I also got to cover an event (& attend!) Graphika Manila for the first time ever. It was extra fun cause I had a media pass (meaning I got an entrance pass for FREE) and took photos of all the speakers for 2 days.
  • I got to complete all my remaining units, last being the MMA-OJT. After completing everything, I was on my final step before graduating – exit interviews and graduation applications.
  • I was already on vacation mode starting around April. But since I don’t want to slack off, I already started scouting for companies I want to apply to. My goal was to have a company accept me before I officially graduate.
  • WHICH I DID! I only applied a few companies I really like. One of those is Ace Saatchi & Saatchi, one of the top advertising agencies in the Philippines. I really didn’t make it such a big deal and really didn’t expect anything from it because DUH. But I submitted an email just to try my luck. A week later, I received a message inviting me over for an interview. My first ever interview as a fresh grad went GREAT!
  • A month later, I was accepted in ACE SAATCHI & SAATCHI as a DIGITAL ART DIRECTOR. So surreal!
  • Spent my last summer vacation as an unemployed individual babysitting my little brother and going with him to his badminton clinics 3x a week.
  • Spent the Holy Week in Clark, Pampanga with my family and Chevy. It was super fun since it was my first out-of-town trip with Chevy.
  • I received my first paycheck and as a tradition, I treated my family in Sambokojin, one of our favorite go-to buffets. I also treated Chevy to Yabu and to the movies!
  • Went to Quezon Province for 3 days with my friends and Chevy. We didn’t get to enjoy the beach hopping that much because of the bad weather but I definitely had a good time since it was my first out-of-town trip without my parents!
  • What made the trip also memorable was because my tooth/gums were in pain the entire trip!! Talk about great timing. But I really tried my best to enjoy the trip and not let the pain ruin everything.
  • My company, Ace Saatchi & Saatchi’s known for holding cool office parties. The first party I got to attend was super fun because of the new people I met. Also, it was the first time I almost got drunk. I don’t really drink but that night I think I had about 5-7 shots of Cuervo. I didn’t know how I stayed through the night but glad Chevy picked me up after the party.
  • My first official sleepover was at Chevy’s!!!! (After the office party)
  • Got regularized as a Digital Art Director under Activations department just this December.
  • Met awesome officemates, who are more like college buddies to me because of our age differences!
  • Parents allowed me to own and actually take care of a puppy. Chico was my first ever mini dachshund but unfortunately, he didn’t make it after a week because of parvo. Still thinking about getting a new one because I’m honestly still scared to be attached again. :(
  • Chevy got his first job ever!!!! And now I’m thrilled because we’re both working already! Yay to adulthood!
  • Went to Singapore with a friend/officemate I became super close with, Steph. It was my first out-of-the-country without my family and I felt so independent and capable. It was my dad and mom’s graduation gift to me! Oh, which reminds me, I really should work on that video trip hehe
  • Spent Christmas in Baguio with the family except for my sister since she left just last November to Virginia, USA for work.
  • Still with Chevy after 4 years!!!! Counting to 5!!!

That’s it, I guess.

Thank you, 2016! So thrilled to see what’s in store for 2017.

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Camille Goes to Singapore

It was my second trip out of the country, and I gotta be honest, this was way better than Hong Kong last year. My family and I stayed in Singapore from January 24-27 to celebrate my mom’s 50th birthday. It was bitin since we only stayed there for 4 days cause almost all of us left work and school for the vacation. Though bitin, couldn’t deny that everyone enjoyed the vacation!

I didn’t get to take pictures that much because I promised myself to work on my first travel vlog that’s supposedly my second but failed my first attempt when we traveled to Hong Kong. It was a hassle since 1) my DSLR’s too heavy, 2) my memory card’s only capable of taking photos kaya sobrang limited lang ng videos, it’s like I’m taking videos for Instagram cause of the 15-second time limit and 3) I had to take pictures on my iPad mini for Instagram purposes so I had to switch between iPad and DSLR from time to time. Hopefully next time I’m using GoPro na *hi mommy!* I was desperate for a perfect candid travel vlog so I had no choice but to make some footages scripted. Hahahaha! I wasn’t supposed to spill it out pero hindi naman halata diba?

Day 1:
Woke up real early for our 6 am flight, everyone’s rushing because mom, who’s supposed to wake us up, overslept and she’s blaming her late flight back from Bangkok that night. Since everyone’s rushing, we didn’t get the chance to eat breakfast at all and I thought we’d grab snacks at the airport like what we usually do, but we didn’t.. So I was in a really bad mood the whole time we’re waiting. The only thing I liked about the flight is the eating part. I gotta be honest, I liked the food they served FOR THE FIRST TIME, kuddos to PAL for serving tapsi with my fave vinegar! The rest of the flight was for sleeping. We arrived at Changi around 9 am, and then took a cab to the hotel. Everyone relaxed for an hour or so while mom and dad checked out the map and took notes of the places we’re visiting. We had chicken rice for lunch and it was the bomb!!!! I even went for a second round because it was that good. After eating, we took the MRT and walked to Merlion Park but found out it was under renovation. A lot of walking happened that day.. We even took a break and fell asleep under a bridge on our way to Singapore Flyer.

Day 2:
I don’t usually wake up at morning unless it’s for school.. And buffet breakfast!!! The plan was to relax half of the day and then go to Night Safari. After having breakfast, sister, mom and I went to the gym to squeeze in a little workout while my dad and little brother bond over swimming. We all went out after lunch and only decided to have lunch around 3 since we’re all full from the hearty breakfast. We went to Lucky Plaza to buy some pasalubong, only to find out it was the place where most Pinoys hangout! It was funny because you could hear people speaking Bisaya and Tagalog everywhere. We went straight back to the hotel after having lunch to prepare for our Night Safari trip. A van picked us up and dropped us off at the Night Safari a little too early before it opens, so we had the time to chill and grab snacks while waiting for the place to open. There was a fire dance performance and found out that the performers were Pinoys! Woo Filipino pride all the way to SG, haha! We went in and started the exciting tour around 8 pm. Too bad I only have a few snaps of the tour because it was too dark and flash photography isn’t allowed.

Day 3:
Universal Studios!!!!! Loved all the rides especially Transformers, The Revenge of the Mummies & Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure! Too bad Battlestar Galactica was under repair, that was the top ride I was looking forward to. Other than that, I enjoyed the entire tour!

Day 4:
Flight back home.. Sad.

Everything in Singapore is perfect, not to mention how organized everything and everyone are. Their traffic system is waaay better than the Philippines, and the people are so disciplined. People are nicer compared to the people in Hong Kong that’s for sure, but Filipinos will always be my favorite crowd, no bias. Haha! We even made a friend who happened to be our driver and the only one who toured us around. His name is Jai, I think he’s Indian. We didn’t know he can speak Tagalog until he mentioned the word “opo” accidentally. According to him, he’d been to the Philippines a few times already and he admired Pinoys even in Singapore. He loves touring Pinoys around his place that’s why he treasures his tricycle and jeepney toys displayed on his dashboard. He was soooo nice that he even picked us up at the hotel on our last day and dropped us off at the airport. Before we part ways, he asked if he can take a picture of us on his phone to keep as a remembrance and use it as my dad’s contact photo on his phone. Sobrang cute I wanna hug him!! We also took a selfie on my dad’s phone! Hehe. He’s my favorite person we encountered in Singapore, I’m really hoping we’d see him again on our next visit. :)

I’m so happy I got to spend those happy times with my family. This trip is definitely one for the books! #FamilyForever ❤︎

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