I’ve been receiving tons of questions and compliments on how I lost weight the past few months. At first it was really flattering for people to actually notice, but it somehow bothered me how that compliment slowly turns into an insult or maybe something I should worry about.
The nonstop “Cam pumayat ka grabe what did you do?” to “Cam sobrang payat mo na you look unhealthy” really did bother me.
But at some point, I was happy and contented with what I achieved for over a year. I couldn’t believe ’til now that I was considered almost a pound away from being overweight few years back. I was depressed because of my weight and my physical appearance, I was confused and insecure about myself and came to the point where I was diagnosed with Bulimia Nervosa. Yup, you read that right! Only a few people I trust knew that story but anyway, that was my immature and insecure self and I’ve moved on already.
Losing the weight wasn’t easy at all. People keep asking “how did you lose all the weight?!” when the answer’s pretty simple: a clean diet and regular exercise. But let me dedicate this post to all those who are wondering what I’ve gone through and what are the things I sacrificed to actually meet the goal I’ve been wanting since day 1.
I sacrificed things and I’ve gone through a lot for me to achieve what I have right now: I removed soda, rice and some sweets from my daily intake. I know a lot of people question me this, “how did you survive the no-rice diet?” I didn’t actually expect succeed with it, maybe that’s just out of desperation.. I went back to badminton training for one whole summer and the training’s no joke. I experienced almost collapsing cause of the intensity of our cardio and drills, but I honestly enjoyed since badminton’s always been my favorite sport. I made running around the village a part of my daily routine, except of course on training days. But after my badminton training session last summer 2012, I still made sure to continue to jog and workout at home. They say you need to go to the gym to lose weight, I say not cause you don’t know the power of downloadable workout videos on YouTube. Haha! Whether you’re at home or at the gym, it actually doesn’t matter cause what’s important is your eagerness and motivation.
I think I got used to the no-rice diet and got a little obsessed with working out that I kind of went overboard. Yup, I met my goal weight (#TheDream). I kept losing weight and everyone’s starting to notice, as they say, hard work pays off! The moment I hit my goal weight, I stopped everything. I started to eat rice and sweets again (still, no soda), I stopped working out and even got lazy to even jog. Although I manage to squeeze in some workouts for muscle toning.
What bothers me most is when people started to say I look “skinny”, and by skinny they meant unhealthy thin and asked if I was sick or something. I honestly didn’t know how to take those in..
I’m not even trying anymore! My mom said my metabolism changed because of the diet I did a year ago. I don’t know if I’m doing the right thing but I’m eating everything I can because I wanted to gain some few pounds back. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy with my body right now.. Though there are times I wish I had thinner legs because that’s always been my problem.
At the end of the day, weight and physical appearance don’t matter that much as long as I’m happy especially with the people around me. As long as I’m eating and doing the right things, I’m healthy and couldn’t be more contented.
In case you’re wondering how I looked few years back.. Here’s some before and after photos!!